School Days, School Days

Originally published Sept 27, 2011

First day of school yesterday.  Allie could not have been more excited.  Shelby loves school, and though she can't tell me in words, I'm sure she feels the same way.  My mommy emotions are a little more complicated.  Some moms worry and cry on day one.  Some moms are ecstatic and have been counting down the days since summer STARTED.  I am a little anxious.  Shelby started Middle School.  A big middle school.  It is hard for me to believe we have reached this mile stone.  Teachers, kids, aides and a school nurse that I don't know.  I haven't had to experience anything like this for the last 3 years.  Shelby had the same special ed teacher for 3rd, 4th and 5th grade.  It was such a relief to drop her off with someone who already knew her and how to care for her.  I don't have that luxury now.  We are entering a whole new world.  And Shelby is a complicated girl.  I have had 2 meetings with her teacher, but still keep thinking of things I haven't explained to her.  What do her seizures look like?  What do they need to do if she has one?  What kind of help does she need to eat..toilet..walk...etc., etc., etc.  It seems like an awful lot of necessary information that I'm not sure I've communicated!  It's so hard for me to turn her over to the care of someone new.  But I'm taking deep breaths...and trusting that our Heavenly Father is watching over her.  And I'm praying for her teachers and all who will be working with her.  And as the popular back-to-school poem says, "I trust you'll treat her well".